Episode II

So, about 10 days after our miscarriage, I am feeling like a bit of a failure blah blah blah..  and I realise that I have woken up with my second episode of Optic Neuritis.

Not only were we pregnant, then miscarriaged, but also going through the process of purchasing a new home (which is still occuring) and now due to the stress of everything and the trauma that my body has just gone through I have this on top of everything.

Mum and Dad were arriving in a matter of days, we were sorting our financial documents and driving backwards and forwards into our major town which is about an hours drive to see the mortgage broker and the bank etc and I couldn't drive.. I couldn't see much to drive because of the 70% loss of vision in my right eye (same as last time July 2010).

Did I tell anyone?  No, I just kept trudging on, putting up with the pain and pressure behind the eye and the loss of vision, the head aches but Nurofen became my friend for a few days there.

Mum and Dad left and I managed to find the strenght to talk to Bloke about it who wasn't impressed, and understandably so.

Off to the GP we go!  She refers me to an eye specialist in our nearest major town and he then pretty much sends me off to hospital with a few choices..

I can either stay in there for 3 days and get IV Steroids OR I can go into my local hospital three hours a day for three days and receive it..  Hell Yeah!!  That saves Bloke the trip into town and I get to go home at night.

So, Wednesday I started at our local hospital on 1g of Methyl Prednisolone IV for three hours, then Thursday and now today Friday was my last IV.

Frankly right now I feel like shit.. I havent really had much sleep, I cant really sleep.. I am bloated and feel like this is what it would have been like to be pregnant (lesson learnt).  I am feeling nausious, it's almost 1am and I have attempted to sleep but to no avail.. Hence I guess why I am here.

So, now I go onto 100mg of Prednisolone (oral) for 2 weeks - 4 x 25mg tablets a day.. Seems like a lot doesnt it?  Then a visit to the eye specialist in a month and a visit to a new neurologist in town which I am sure is going to be a LOAD of fun and may result in me having to discuss and make a decision on permanent drugs which will require a daily injection - frankly not something I am keen on.

I guess considering I have been episode free for 2 years that is a bonus, must mean I was doing something right before we fell pregnant, which leads me to think that perhaps we will have to give up the baby making process for the time being, if not forever.

Anyway, I start on my oral meds tomorrow, lets see how they make me feel and perhaps I should try and get some sleep before I fall into a bigger bundle of poo and end up in a worse situation.

More later......